...omg....s0oo0o0o0o0o sad...my big sis left suday...and be4 she left she wrote me a very touchin letter that made me cry tellin me that im her fav and only lil sis and that shes gonna miss me and juss to let no one step on me or my dreams and that no matter wut shell k.i.t. and we be close no matter how far apart we are...i cried... then she gave me all her jewelry and omg! i didnt want to take it cuz i knew that if i did that mean she leb no matter wut ...but if i didnt take it she would leb it in my room....so0o0o0o ...........sad...she promised to k.i.t. thou s0o0o0o0o im all kewl wit it...

omg! theres this guy that i went out wit 2ce and never realli lost feelin for...but newayz we started talkin again and ya...im realli happy ...cuz he told me that he never lost feelin for me either...yah! but ya nough bout that....hehe..... ahhh! we talkin rite now...lol....sorrie...hehe...

newayz...sunday after sayin bie to my big sis and her room mate i was so0o0o0o  sad that my two realli good friends (DoNaLd and ViCtOr) took me to...lol....chuckie cheeses ...lol...i actually had a GrEaT time and didnt want to leb but i had to go baby-sit so0o0o0 they dropped me off and ya...thnx u guyz...thnx a lot i had the best time!

well guess i better go..ppl tryin to call me and ya

...my mood..hehe....love a lots...::muhc::

  Ok! now that ive sorta, kinda, not realli recovered from that stupid stuff that happened like saturday....my life is bo0o0o0o0o0orin rite now..no skewl, nuttin to do except the tv thing, comp thing, phone thing, and juss be bored and do chores thing...uhhh! well my realli good friend osc came over today and we talked about everythin and i got a lot of stuff off my mond and i feel a lot better...considerin how i was feelin...guyz have no idea how bad they hurt us...they think theyre bein cute or funney, but the way i see it, guyz take our dignity, hearts, pride, and sometimes our very lives...they change and alter our lives witout even knowin it...and it realli sux that even though we hate them or have a lot against them...we keep on lovin them....thats the diff between most grls and most guyz...grls actually mean wut they say (i.e: we care and dont want to hurt neone) but most guyz juss run grls down...sometimes they dont mean to, but it still hurts and still as effective. im NOT sayin EVERY guy is this way, but MOST guyz that i have met r...some grls are this way too. so everyone juss needs to be careful....i wish we didnt have to be that way thou..but humans are naturally evil...so thats all i have to say bout that....
newayz...omg! uhhh! so sad my sis and her room mate are lebin like in 4 dayz....S0o0o0o0o0o0o sad! i think i need to stop bein sad and get glad ....lol
btw...my good friend OmAr wanted me to meantion him so0o0o0o0o0o0o there u go..happy...better be cuz it took me a GoOd 30 secs to write this! hehe jk! i love u!
ooo i know that osc wants his name meantioned too so i meantion it here and above...thnx for bein here and listen to me...it meant a lot and i feel lots better!
oo and jake i know that u want to come and hang too so0o0o0o0o0o come! lol
that was my briter notes..hehe! well guess im gonna go ahead and chat wit ppl...man life is not only sad...but man is it bo0o0o0o0o0o0rin! lol
LoVe A lOtS!!!!

omg! i wish life would STOP pickin on me! ahhh! like omg this weekend was goin all good and i was actually havin fun, but then sunday (early mornin like 3) life decided lets screw amber! i mean GOSH! give me a break....ok heres wut happened....u all know that i kinda waitin for the "perfect" guy to come and sweep me off my feet (lol) well he like totally came like 2 weeks ago...(well so i thought he came)... newayz to make a loooooong story kinda short...wevee been like flirtin and i ended up realli liking him ...so like most ppl ...i was wonderin if the feelin was mutual (sp) ...so i asked..... well i asked around like 9:30 (pm) and like we kinda started fightin (like we were married ....literally) and like it was like 3 am wen i finally decided he was TOTALLY not the person i first met and that we needed to juss be friends (even though i still liked him) ....wen i said that he started sayin a bunch of bs and i got realli mad ...and cried...ahhh...so0o0o0o0o0o not worth it.....( but trust me i had every RITE to be mad and cry) but OMG! seriously he gives every guy a REALLI bad name! i felt like ....like i was kissin the enemy and it was realli scary and the sad part (well its all sad but u get it) is that i have known this person for like 3 yrs...but he juss now caught my interest and lost it all in 2 weeks...i could say that i hate him (which if u knew u would say i have every RITE to feel that way) .....juss uhhhhhh! i hate this ...can juss one REAL guy come along and do me a favor....be the person u say u are instead of turnin out to be a dick or worse like VAHE! im totally pissed and he so0o0o0o0o wasnt worth the tears or the time! now the guy juss better be who he says cuz one more of those ppl and im goin to forget  men 4ever! (not that im turnin les...sorrie ) but uhhhh! i hate the fact that guyz think they can say and do w/e they want to us and then act like it doesnt affect us! well newsflash!!!!! grls are ppl too! get over ursleves and while ur at it.......get a heart too! (::cough cough:: vahe! ::cough cough::) newayz ...dont get me wrong....i didnt say EVERY guy will screw u over im juss so sick of some of them being all over us and totally foolin us and then in the end turnin out to be this guy we NEVER wanted! uhhhh!

also! omg! my sis is lebin next week! ahhh! no! i dont want her to go! ahhh! that sux! i am goin to miss her S0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o much and shes the person that helps me wit EVERYTHIN!!!! im realli lucky to have a sis like that! and now shes lebin me for a loooooooooong time! ahhh! wut am i gonna do now? help me?!?!?!? ahhh! w/e! thingz were bad now there worse the only way it can go is better.....rite???

btw...on top of everythin...i got in a fight wit my dad and i feel bad but in the same matter better....but ya! w/e

one good thing thou...(so all u ppl dont think my life is too bad lol) i got to hang out wit one of my closes friends today! ViCtOr and DoNaLd! man we had lots of fun! thnx guyz ...u realli cheered me up! oh one more thing! ahhh! yah! im almost done wit the song im writin! yah! it will be the first (or 2nd) song i EVER FINISHED!!!! yah! k nough! feed baq is good! hehe love a lots!